I am learning, in my advanced maternal age, not to party TOO hard on Mardi Gras.
Why? You know why.
Who wants to fast on a hangover?
Plus no hair of the dog for this chica! I gave up alcohol for Lent because I’m starting to enjoy it a bit too much.
Honest, maybe, but it stopped being humble the moment that I called it that.
Ash Wednesday was hard, regardless. I mentioned on Facebook that I “stink at fasting,” and I do. Food is my go-to, along with coffee and wine, so at the end of the day I felt depressed and crabby. I tried to put on a cheerful face–you know, tie a ribbon on my sackcloth and slap some make-up on the ashes–but it didn’t work. Not really.
Sometimes you just gotta shoulder your cross. I kept checking my emails and texts for a pick-me-up but got nothin’–nothin’!–in return. I felt lonely, despised, unfunny, unpopular; I felt like a depressed person because I was.
So you know I did? I drank a 5th of vodka!
Just kidding. I went to bed at 9:30; I got the rest my mind needed. In the morning, I woke up fresh and prayed. I prayed for people by name as I fingered my rosary and I thought, “Take that, you ol’ hairy legs.”
The fog soon lifted. I felt peace. I could eat.
(And having fasted successfully the day before, the scale was down a couple of points. Bonus!)
One thing that emails and texts have taught me is that I am an incredibly impatient person. And prideful! This is an area I need to work on. I shouldn’t place such demands on people, and I shouldn’t keep all my emotional “eggs” in one affirmation basket, because sometimes…most times…God wants to be enough.
He wants me to want Him more than those emails and texts.
Enough! Let’s move onto to the give-away winner. I mentioned that I prayed for you all by name and I have been, though I haven’t quite made it through the list. You will each get a Hail Mary, I promise! I prayed, too, for the winner of the give-away, that my gift might bless the winner with what she needs at this time.
I’m thinking chocolate?
And the winner is…
Your care package will soon be on its way! It includes (but is not limited to) something for mind, body and soul: an autographed copy of this book by Dale Ahlquist; an autographed copy of this book by Karen Edmisten; and chocolate.
You can eat it on Sunday with my blessing. : )