• Email
  • Facebook
  • Instagram
  • Twitter

Minnesota Mom

Lots of Coffee, lots of kids. It's a peaceful life.

  • Home
  • Blog
  • About Us
  • My Photography
  • Contact

Welcome to my happy place!

Subscribe now to stay in the loop. You'll get new posts and freebies sent right to your in-box.

In His Image

April 22, 2008 by Minnesota Mom Filed Under: Minnesota Me, Miscarriage, Motherhood, Prolife, Spiritual Growth 30 Comments

Yesterday, on the one-week anniversary of finding out I’d miscarried, I delivered our child into the world. God gave us the grace of seeing his perfect little body, unmarred by blood and entirely recognizable.

I was in awe, truly.*

After that, however, the rest of the miscarriage was more than a bit intense. As per my doctor’s instructions, I had to call my husband home from work (always a source of guilt); take 800 mg. of ibuprofen to slow things down (if you know what I mean); and rest rest rest. In the end I did not need to go to the ER after all.

I did, however, get to work my way happily through the bag of Doritos that my husband brought home, and I got to read to my heart’s content. That’s the very best part of bed rest, isn’t it? I finished this story (“But that’s our read-aloud!” protested my five-year-old) which was very good and which I highly recommend.

Anyway.

That is where the physical side of life would have me. On an emotional note, the grief process continues. Yesterday evening, after the kids had gone to bed and while a spring storm pounded the windows, I looked again at that little figure and I cried…and cried…and cried.

Suffering and tears are so hard for me. I am tempted to think that I am not being faithful because I am letting myself feel sorrow. I know this is not the case—after all, Jesus suffered and Jesus wept—but there you have it. I can very much see how suffering can bring about either one’s spiritual growth…or one’s spiritual demise. I am praying for the former!

But still it’s hard.

I will close with a beautiful prayer that one of my readers shared with me. May God bless you today and always. Love your family with all your heart and let your life (and God’s will) unfold slowly.

“Lord, teach me to be patient – with life, with people, and with myself. I sometimes try to hurry things along too much, and I push for answers before the time is right. Teach me to trust Your sense of timing rather than my own and to surrender my will to Your greater and wiser plan. Help me let life unfold slowly, like the small rosebud whose petals unravel bit by bit, and remind me that in hurrying the bloom along, I destroy the bud and much of the beauty therein.

Instead, let me wait for all to unfold in its own time. Each moment and state of growth contains loveliness. Teach me to slow down enough to appreciate life and all it holds.

Amen.

Ad Jesum per Mariam,

*If you would like to see a photo of our little Thomas, email me privately and I would be happy to share it with you.

Related

Leave a Reply Cancel reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

Comments

  1. Karen E. says

    April 22, 2008 at 1:22 pm

    you said: “Suffering and tears are so hard for me. I am tempted to think that I am not being faithful because I am letting myself feel sorrow. I know this is not the case—after all, Jesus suffered and Jesus wept—but there you have it. I can very much see how suffering can bring about either one’s spiritual growth…”

    Yes, but first, sadly, we have to *feel* the suffering. So keep crying and know that you’re being faithful. If life weren’t so precious, we would not be so devastated when it was lost.

    You have to shed the tears … how else can He wipe them away?

    Reply
  2. ia jen says

    April 22, 2008 at 1:38 pm

    The Lord wouldn’t have given us important things in our lives, if when lost, we didn’t grieve their loss.
    All of the innocents in heaven are praying for you, too. Mine, yours and everyone else’s too.
    Blessings to you Margaret as you work your way through this.

    Reply
  3. Ruth says

    April 22, 2008 at 1:48 pm

    Dear Margaret. You have been and continue to be in my daily prayers. You are such a beautiful gift to all who know you. You ar`very much loved by everyone.

    Reply
  4. Shannon says

    April 22, 2008 at 2:20 pm

    praying that God will turn your mourning into dancing. I can’t imagine how difficult this is…I’m thinking of you each day.
    Prayers!

    Reply
  5. Journey of Truth says

    April 22, 2008 at 2:26 pm

    By allowing yourself to grieve, you open wide the doors of your heart to the healing Our Lord has for you. He loves you. He is our family. Trust in the Lord with all thine heart . . . don’t trust in your own understanding, but acknowledge Him always and He will direct your way.

    Thank you for being so human and real and accessable and loveable. You are His daughter and He loves you very much.

    You have our prayers.

    Reply
  6. KC says

    April 22, 2008 at 2:30 pm

    Karen says it all so well. Continuing my prayers for you, dear Margaret. Big hugs coming your way.

    Reply
  7. Anonymous says

    April 22, 2008 at 3:23 pm

    I am praying for you and Baby Thomas today, Margaret.

    Reply
  8. Jessica says

    April 22, 2008 at 3:28 pm

    Oh Margaret!! My heart is broken for you. Know that we are praying for you, and will continue to pray. God Bless!

    Reply
  9. Christine says

    April 22, 2008 at 3:37 pm

    Prayers and hugs to you.

    Reply
  10. Cindy says

    April 22, 2008 at 3:37 pm

    Margaret –
    Know that you are in my prayers daily.

    Reply
  11. Elizabeth says

    April 22, 2008 at 3:39 pm

    Praying for all of you, Margaret.

    Your precious little Thomas will be being held close by the Mother of God ……

    Reply
  12. Anonymous says

    April 22, 2008 at 4:15 pm

    Margaret,
    I have been a long time reader, have never commented. Your faith, beauty and strength comes through your words. Our prayers are being sent up for you and your family. Though I can not understand your pain, as women we can take on each other’s crosses. Know there are many out in this blog world helping to carry a small amount of your burden. You are so faithful, and I know you know God loves, take some time to actually let yourself “feel” that love. He will let you know He is there always.
    Lori

    Reply
  13. coffeemom says

    April 22, 2008 at 4:38 pm

    Oh Margaret. It breaks my heart to read this, for you and for your husband and son. But even our perfect Blessed Mother suffered anguish and sorrow and surely she wept devastating tears. She understands and knows. More than anyone. I will keep you in my prayers.
    Our Lady of Sorrows, please pray and console and comfort Margaret and hold close that sweet tiny boy.

    Reply
  14. Mary B says

    April 22, 2008 at 5:11 pm

    Amen Karen e! We are praying for your whole family. And also praying for those who do not understand the sorrow of lost life. Its a burden but also a gift.

    Reply
  15. Abigail says

    April 22, 2008 at 5:25 pm

    We are praying for you, hard, at our house.

    Reply
  16. Joannof10 says

    April 22, 2008 at 5:36 pm

    You are in my prayers…

    Reply
  17. Angoraknitter says

    April 22, 2008 at 5:45 pm

    Many, many, ((((HUGS))), prayers for you.

    Reply
  18. Ellen says

    April 22, 2008 at 6:24 pm

    I am so very sorry for your loss. Never having had a miscarriage, I can’t imagine what you are going through. Seeing your child must have brought such mixed emotions – to see a beautiful child whose life was so short must have been devastating, but to see your child, to mounrn him must have brought you some closure.

    I will continue to pray for you and your family and especially for Thomas.

    Reply
  19. Kimberly at Echowood says

    April 22, 2008 at 8:21 pm

    Praying for you and yours, Margaret. May God bless you and give you peace during this time of sorrow. May our Blessed Mother hold you, gently but tightly, in her loving arms. May her Son grant you grace and mercy, even as you join your suffering with His.

    Reply
  20. Joan says

    April 22, 2008 at 9:51 pm

    Dear Margaret,
    Never having a miscarriage, but seeing my mother have 4 after having the 5 of us I can feel some of your loss. I cannot imagine your pain, because I am not you. Blessings to you and prayer is coming your way.

    Reply
  21. Dan and Janet Brungardt says

    April 22, 2008 at 9:56 pm

    As a physician, I have held in my hands such little tiny babies. As heart-wrenching and tear-provoking as it is, at the same time it is so amazing to see such perfectly formed little bodies.

    That said, not having being through it from your side, I can’t imagine how difficult that must be. I keep you in my prayers.
    Janet

    Reply
  22. Cheryl says

    April 22, 2008 at 10:07 pm

    I don’t know what to say, Margaret. I remember all the crying I did last summer. It was so necessary. Know that I’m thinking of you and praying for you and your family.

    Reply
  23. Jennie C's Mom says

    April 22, 2008 at 10:47 pm

    Dearest Margaret and Family -my deepest sympathy on your loss. My the love of your family and the Lord see you through the loss of your son.

    Reply
  24. Cheryl M. says

    April 23, 2008 at 12:51 am

    Margaret, please know that you are in my prayers.

    Reply
  25. Stina says

    April 23, 2008 at 1:53 am

    Margaret,

    These wiser women have said it much better than I ever could. I just wanted to let you know that I’m thinking about you and praying for your family.

    Reply
  26. Anna B. says

    April 23, 2008 at 1:55 am

    Hugs and Prayers for You, Baby Thomas and your family…

    Reply
  27. Beckie R says

    April 23, 2008 at 3:13 am

    Margaret,

    To you and your family, my deepest sympathies. I cannot fathom your suffering and hope that you gain comfort through your prayers and the support of your family and friends.

    Reply
  28. Melissa says

    April 23, 2008 at 3:41 am

    God bless you and your family, Jennie C directed me to your blog via post. I lost a baby two weeks ago myself…our third in less than two years. And fifth altogether.

    I didn’t take pictures, but I regret it at this point. Please know that we are praying for your healing, both physical and emotional.

    Reply
  29. twithhoney says

    April 23, 2008 at 4:11 pm

    I cannot come up with any words to say. I have been trying for days to find the words to express the sympathy I feel for you and your family and say something, anything that would help you.

    Instead I offer something else. Know that you, your family and Thomas are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Reply
  30. Lisa says

    April 23, 2008 at 8:33 pm

    Oh, yes, please, you do need to cry. I’m sitting here wiping away tears for you, too. I thought it was stronger/better not to cry for my first poor lost baby, and didn’t cry for him for fifteen years… And that’s not a good thing. When I finally understood it was OK to mourn, I cried for four months! And I’m crying with you now, too. Many of us out here understand a little. He understands completely.

    Reply

Hi there!

I’m Margaret in Minnesota, and this is my mom's-eye perspective of a kid-heavy life. I love the Lord; I take lots of photos; and I always try to tell it like it is, from sex to depression and everything in between! I hope you enjoy your time here. ♥

Welcome to my happy place!

Subscribe now to stay in the loop. You'll get new posts and freebies sent right to your in-box.

Join 173 other subscribers

Your support is appreciated. ♥

Too shy to leave a comment?

Email me instead.

Search This Blog

My Archives

All original material on this site copyright Margaret Berns, © 2006–2025.

Tags

#StreamTeam Alaska Ask the Blogger blogging busyness Cute Kid Stories Daybook Depression Eczema Fallen Heroes Family Fun friendship Gluten-Free Good Habits Gratitude Health & Wellness Home Education Home Improvement Homeschooling Intercessory Prayer Liturgical Year Love & Romance Maggie's Quick Picks Marriage MCHEC Military Life Mindful Living Minnesota Mother-Daughter Motherhood Netflix NFP Family Foundations Magazine North Dakota On Being Catholic Parenting Purgatory recipes Reviews Shameless Blegs Smartphone Monitoring Spiritual Growth Stranger Things Suzuki Violin Travel Trust

Recent Comments

  • Dinora Canales on A First Communion Novena
  • chamnan on Boot Camp: Ten Ways to Cope with Missing Your Recruit
  • Carolina on CHC is Loved by Me
  • Heather on Boot Camp: Ten Ways to Cope with Missing Your Recruit
  • Liz S. on Boot Camp: Ten Ways to Cope with Missing Your Recruit

Top Posts & Pages

  • Meet My Angela
  • A Letter to my Daughter on Her First Holy Communion
  • A Letter to my 3rd Daughter on Her First Communion Day
  • Boot Camp: Ten Ways to Cope with Missing Your Recruit

Hi there!

I’m Margaret in Minnesota, and this is my mom's-eye perspective of a kid-heavy life. I love the Lord; I take lots of photos; and I try to always tell it like it is, from sex to depression and everything in between! I hope you enjoy your time here. ♥

  • Home
  • Blog
  • About Us
  • My Photography
  • Contact
  • Family Fun
  • Just Me
  • Hearth & Home
  • Motherhood

All original material on this site copyright © 2006–2025 by Margaret Berns