On Saturday morning, some friends and I met for Mass and a study of the Catechism. It was a lovely three-hour outing—good for my soul, and great for my need to chitchat & visit—and I was so thankful my husband let me slip away.
My oldest son even did the dishes!
When I got home, I discovered this scene in the family room:
“Wow!” I exclaimed, taking in the elaborate KAPLA Plank fortress, “You guys have been busy!”
And they had.
As they continued to play—which for them, of course, is work—I watched them quietly and thought about something my friends and I had discussed that morning. One of the other moms had commented that she wished, sometimes, that God would hurry up and fix her problems. “He can really take His time, don’t you think?” she asked. “I mean, He could take away my faults in an instant, if He wished. He could take away my crosses! Instead, I find that sometimes it can take months before I see where He was headed.”
Isn’t that the case?
I thought about my current situation—my husband’s unemployment, the radically modified budget and the home improvements that have stalled—and I thought about the suffering we’ve had in years past.
Specifically, all those miscarriages.
As hard as it was—as hard as it is—I do believe that He knows what He’s doing. He’s the master gardener; He has a plan. Also, I got a kick out of looking at that photo of my children because their expressions were all so very different.
And then, with a bit of an evil cackle, I decided to label that photo and use my family as an example. How do we respond to God’s work in our souls?
1. Do we act indifferent? Yeah, God helps me. What of it? I’m still stressed.
2. Do we get all proud? Aren’t I blessed? So much virtue!
3. Do we smile serenely? Accept His help, feel greatly humbled?
4. Do we come to Him as we are? Underdressed, but oh-so-joyful?
5. Or do we watch from afar? Aloof, apprehensive, even scared of His plans for our uncertain life?
Like I said, I had some fun.
And I saw my own self in Number Six, all the above.