I long to live from a place of rest,
to teach and mother from peace rather
than anxiety. I’m quite certain
that He desires that for all of us–
His beloved daughters
called to the educating
and raising up of little hearts
by Sarah Mackenzie
So I made the kids their back-to-school Schultüte (locally known as “tooter poopers”) and they were happy. I was happy too, seeing their joy, but the closer I got to the first day of school…
The first day of our school, Our Lady of the Angels…
The more anxious and overwhelmed I felt.
Every new school year, it’s the same old fear. In short, I don’t how it is that someone as impatient and disorganized as myself can be a constant and—somehow—loving presence to my children.
Well, I can’t do it…
Ha! Not this kid! Not a chance.
…but God can.
Today I woke up at four with a knot in my stomach, made a cup of coffee and sat down to prayer. “I give You everything!” I told Him, in tears, “Please take it despite my imperfections. Please take my everything through the hands of Mary.”
He, in return, gave me a sense of peace. He gave me the “everything” I needed.
I thought, I need to re- read Sarah’s Teaching from Rest.
Her words were just the balm that my worried heart needed.
“We have to stop fretting over every little detail. We need to stop comparing. We’ve got to drop the self-inflated view that we are the be-all-end-all of whether the education we are offering our children is going to be as successful as we hope it is. After all, our job is not to be successful- success itself is entirely beside the point.
“It’s faithfulness that He wants. God is good! He isn’t going to let us pour out our hearts for our children only to be left choking on the dust of our mistakes.”
She’s right, of course, but I needed the reminder. ; )
May God bless you today as you make your way!
I wish you a peace-filled back-to-school. ♥